A few weeks ago I broke up with my bf after being together for over a year. None of my friends have told me I was wrong. He lived with me for over a year and barely helped with the bills or chores. Some would say he got a free ride. But being the nice guy that I am, it didn’t bother me until recently. Not everyone is successful at what they want to do, or make a lot of money, but if your with somone they should at least show appreciation for how you impact thier life. Clean around the house, make dinner, ask how your day was, spend time with you. If they can’t show you affection or patience and enjoy life with you then they are just a roomate not paying rent and well…. They’ve just got to go.

Message to him "Move on with your life learn how to be a responsible adult. Set some goals for yourself, get a better job. I’m not perfect, but I work hard and play hard to. I tried to show my affection to you and you just wanted to fight. It got to the point I didn’t want to come home, to the place I cleaned and paid rent for."

Sometimes you got to be the bigger man and just let go.

You just don’t know bout me…

I can have another you in a minute…

Matter of fact, he’ll be here in a minute…

So the last few sundays I have been going to rocoes with carlos. Oh boi, it has been packed as all hell 2 out of the last 3 weekends. Lovely. I have a great time but have to go home, so I can function at work the next day. It is good to hang out with carlos, looking as fine as ever but, maybe a little sad. I am a little sad to. I was hoping to settle down with him a few years ago but his late night partying and drinking had taken its toll on our relationship.

After getting out of this current relationship what have I learned? Am I better for the experiences I have been through? Will I know who will truly make me happy, or better yet can I find somone who can compliment who I am better. With drew we argued about stupid shit too much, and too often. It felt like I was still at work. But, it felt good to have somone to come to, felt good to have someone in my bed and to wake up to everyday.

When you live with someone you lose your single self behavior. Maybe I need someone who can stand on their own two feet and who can take care of themselves without my help. Carlos could do those things. Its hard to find someone with my same values. As we get older things change, my core beliefs haven’t changed. wanting to be successful hasnt changed. The type of guys I like and what turns me on has definitely changed.